Right now, I'm sad.
I'm sad that some things are up in the air.
I'm sad I may be facing doing this alone again.
I'm sad that there's so many unknowns.
I'm sad that my heart may be getting broken.
I'm sad I can't sit here and spill out every single thing I think.
I'm sad that I will be judged.
I'm sad that I care about that at all.
I'm sad my children will have different lives from other children.
I'm sad.
Mommys are hardly ever allowed to be sad.
So today, I'm going to be sad.
Maybe even tomorrow too.
And eventually, I'll stop being sad, and I'll be okay.
But right now, I'm sad.
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And right now...I'm praying for you! There are SO MANY children growing up in abusive and unloving homes or in shelters or group homes! There is no right or wrong way to do this! If you raise your children alone, but love, provide for, care for and protect them...so be it!!! Sending love, hugs and blessings your way!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry you are sad....I am saying prayers for you that everything turns around for the better! Hang in there! Things will get better!
ReplyDeleteI have two babies (who are now 11 and 15) that I raised as a single mama. I understand about as much as anyone can.
ReplyDeleteNow? My daughters and I are happy and loved and I am married to the man of my dreams...who ran across my path when I was absolutely NOT looking for him.
My choices? Got me to where I am today with two beautiful daughters, a son who I adore (he makes the terrible twos look good) and another baby girl on the way.
It wasn't easy but I did it. Don't get me wrong, there were PLENTY of times of joy during those years...but I had the sad and lonely and hard times too and there were plenty of those. I had to make the choice not once, but twice, to go it alone in order to be the person I am right this minute. And this minute? I'm pretty darn happy.
Much love to you and your little ones.
<3
It is ok to be sad sometimes. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteYou may have moments where you are sad that your kids will have a 'different' upbringing but the important thing is that they have great mom that will raise them with all the love and caring they could ask for.
Besides...what is 'normal' anyway?
Hugs!!!
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