I know so much more than you think I do.
I know that you found them online.
I know that you told them about me.
I know that you told them that if it was worth it, you'd play the field.
I know that we should've been worth it.
I know that you sent them inappropriate pictures.
I know that you talked to them while I was around you.
I know that you sat there and lied to my face when I asked you about them.
I know that I didn't confront you.
I know that it takes each person their own amount of time to deal with things.
I know that you'll make excuses.
I know that I won't believe them.
I know that I won't trust anything you say again.
I know that I don't hate you.
I know that I don't dislike you.
I know that my boys will not see that this is acceptable.
I know that I'm insanely sad and heartbroken.
I know that I will be sad for a long time.
I know that I will be okay.
I know that I am worth so much more.
So, so much more.
You taught me that.
And for that, I thank you.
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Yes, you are worth so much more!! Kudos to you for seeing that.
ReplyDeleteI <3 You. You're not alone!
ReplyDeleteI am so, so, so, so sorry. This happened to me last March. Single mama here too. Blindsided. You are not alone. You will make it. I can tell you are strong.
ReplyDeleteI know that not much feels good at this moment, but if it feels at all helpful to hear my heart - where I was when this happened to me, go here: http://www.shortsandlongs.net/?p=120. If that just feels heavy, then stay right here.
Otherwise - and either way - bless you (and your precious babies). God be with you. I will be thinking of you. And you are right. YOU DESERVE SO MUCH MORE!!
Sounds like my life....
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