Monday, January 24, 2011

i know...

I know so much more than you think I do.

I know that you found them online.

I know that you told them about me.

I know that you told them that if it was worth it, you'd play the field.

I know that we should've been worth it.

I know that you sent them inappropriate pictures.

I know that you talked to them while I was around you.

I know that you sat there and lied to my face when I asked you about them.

I know that I didn't confront you.

I know that it takes each person their own amount of time to deal with things.

I know that you'll make excuses.

I know that I won't believe them.

I know that I won't trust anything you say again.

I know that I don't hate you.

I know that I don't dislike you.

I know that my boys will not see that this is acceptable.

I know that I'm insanely sad and heartbroken.

I know that I will be sad for a long time.

I know that I will be okay.

I know that I am worth so much more.

So, so much more.

You taught me that.

And for that, I thank you.

4 comments:

  1. Yes, you are worth so much more!! Kudos to you for seeing that.

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  2. I am so, so, so, so sorry. This happened to me last March. Single mama here too. Blindsided. You are not alone. You will make it. I can tell you are strong.

    I know that not much feels good at this moment, but if it feels at all helpful to hear my heart - where I was when this happened to me, go here: http://www.shortsandlongs.net/?p=120. If that just feels heavy, then stay right here.

    Otherwise - and either way - bless you (and your precious babies). God be with you. I will be thinking of you. And you are right. YOU DESERVE SO MUCH MORE!!

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